Friendship..?

Are we Friends or are we not? You told me once but I forgot..

Well, assuming by what happened today, we were not, by my standards anyway.

So what is a friend and how do you determine one? They love you as you are, take you with your flaws, and come when everyone else walks out.. Friendship is one of a kind relationship as well, some, the best, the most valuables, last a lifetime..

It isnt a machine to turn on and off .. it isnt vending machine you can kick and turn off when you dont like the product it gives you.. if its broken, you fix it. Right?

Ive had many people come and go out of my life. Some I called my friends and later learned they werent. Some I always knew were there just visiting. But the ones you think are there to stay, the ones you think are more than some others.. they hurt you most when they cant take the darkness of you. When all they do is suck out the good of you and all you can give to them without ever returning a single favor back..

Friends dont leave eachother. Friends fight but they forgive. Friends talk. Friends give advice and you decide do you follow or not, but at least someone cared enough to listen to your problems and worries. Friends can say stuff that you  may not want to hear because its the truth, Friends dont lie.

So I guess, reading what im writing and thinking while im writing, I never had her as a friend, just someone who wanted to suck out the life of me and use me when she needed and ignore when she had better things to do. Then call me out for doing exactly what she did, tho I only did that after I got tired of trying to be there when she obviously at that moment didnt need me.

She called me malicious, tho shes been the mean one all the time. For years. Evil even.
Not alone, not to me, but to others. Who also called her friend.

I hope oneday she learns her lesson, someone will come and leave the mark that will never leave, and she will know what she did to tons of people, but by that time.. it will be too late.

Goodbye 'my friend'.